往事只能回味

人的一生中会遇见两种情人。
一个让你哭， 一个让你笑。

如果能先遇到让你哭的人，
才遇到让你笑的人，
那是最幸福的。
因为曾经痛哭过， 你知道，
人间的一笑， 可以弥补一切。

但是， 如果反过来，
先遇到让你笑的人，
就会觉得这样的爱情不够刻骨铭心。
等到你经历了另一个让你痛彻心扉的爱情时，
你又会怀念过去的欢笑已经成为往事。

如果可以，
但愿我是那个让你笑的人。

如果可以，
但愿你是两者之中比较幸福的那一种人。

pictures!!

these photos were taken when the 4 of us having fried chicken at city plaza..

look at that diamond ring, it's 3 CARAT!!! and guess how much is it =)

this is the mi recently, lols only acting cute la =)

and these pictures were taken on GUI YU's birthday..

Dun cry.

i think i looked happier.. i thought i've been thru the darkest time of my life, but i guess im stil at it..

when im with my frens, i feel like my life is stil the same.. not much changes and im enjoying their company.. but aft everyone went home, i went home, i'll cannt help thinking that im so lonely.. especially when im at home.. that's why i like going to my aunt's hse more than i like to go home.. cause when im at my aunt's hse, there's more people in the hse and i dun feel that kind of lonely feeling..

last nite, i was watching 家好月圆 with my ah ma.. den was crying like nobody's business and my ah ma fell asleep in the middle.. lols.. but at that time, im stil alrite.. it's aft finishing watching the dvd, my ah ma went to bed and i oso went to bed, i started to feel lonely.. i dun like this kind of feeling.. while lying on my bed trying to get some slp, i felt like crying.. and so i cried.. and im such a person that cannt stop if i start crying..

then crying made mi think of the past, i thought of him* again.. and i cried even harder..

this morning, i went to work by bus.. was listening to my phone's mp3, then all the sad sad songs made mi cry on the bus again.. especially when listening to this 2 songs, 祝君好 and TRUELY MADLY DEEPLY..

i think its a few days ago bah.. i had a dream, dunno if its a good one or bad one.. but i had a desire it would come true.. im so useless, how come i cannt even forget one man?



never make someone your everything,
cause if u lose him,
u've got nothing.

我们的纪念

我游荡在记忆深处

寻找残留下的温度

我在风吹乱头发的街上怀念着幸福

我在镜子面前无助

我在梦里慌乱追逐

我在只有我的深夜里醒来

感到孤独

5D4N JAPAN DELIGHT

today went to book air tickets!!! yipee!! guess wher im going? not penang, not taiwan.. im going to JAPAN!!! woots.. im going with my aunt and 2 younger cousins... and 3 other collegues.. we're going to TOKYO, 5 days 4nites.. this time we're going for a purpose.. cause there's a unique burberry blue label in JAPAN, and only in JAPAN... lols.. im so anticipating to buy some of that blu label clothings and bags this time.. also in the tour, we'll be going HELLO KITTY LAND, DISNEYLAND, MT FUJI, and some other parts of JAPAN...

gonna buy lotsa souvenior for my sistas and peeps.. just now went to NLB to borrow some novels.. suddenly hav the feeling to read some novels abt romance.. lols.. den just now while in bus, was reading that novel named CAUGHT IN THE ACT, den missed my bus stop.. lols.. den gotta walk quite a long way back..

tml gonna meet szehui and peiwen to shopping at paya lebar.. actually wanna go swimming de but got a slight prob so change to buy stuffs lo.. hahaas..

dwelling...

its not right to dwell on the past.. im really not the kind of woman his looking for.. im not the kind that can tolerate jealousy, cause i get jealous damn easily.. he's not the kind that can resist temptations, that's why he became an easy prey to china women..

im not the kind of woman that can forgive and forget.. its not that i bear grudges, but whenever i see him, i'll be constantly reminded of what happened between him and that china woman.. that's why i can never remain friends aft a break-up.. and i dun believe in salvaging to patch things up.. what's done cannt be undone, no matter how many times of apology made.. i can dun mind what happened before being together, but i cannt treat things the same way when it happened aft such long term relationship..

im not the kind of woman that can take betrayal.. what i look for is true love.. i dun deny that there is a possibility that he really did truely loved me before.. but even so, it was in the past.. cause he wouldnt betray someone that he loves deeply..

so pls dun go on and on abt love.. u have no idea what u're talking abt.. if u really stil have anymore feelings towards me, pls let me off.. ur constant sms are causing my emotions to fluctuate uncontrollably..

(all) man cannt resist temptations

today went to work very early (yawn)... cause aunt gonna run some errands very early in the morning so i hav to wake up in time to catch her ride to simlim.. it was early when i reached, so i went to snackbar to buy some breakfast before going up..

when i reached snackbar, the aunties saw me and they seemed happy.. like, the auntie that makes tea, asked me very casually: "诗莹，几杯茶，一杯还是两杯？" i was startled, i paused for a moment den replied: "一杯，谢谢.." actually it was quite long since i last went down to get some tea.. last time used to go down very often to buy tea, either with him or without.. den aft the break-up, didnt go down anymore.. i oso dunno why.. the auntie asked that qns mayb cause she knoes we were together but doesnt knoe abt our break-up.. memories suddenly filled my mind when i was waiting to pay for my tea..

i knew forgetting was tough, but the surroundings makes it tougher..

i shed big big drops of tears today.. sob sob.. nth la, lols.. cause was watching the 唐心风暴 之 家好月圆.. its really a very nice show lo.. every single episode touched my heart deeply.. its actually a TVB series that talks abt a big family.. the show is still being aired in HONG KONG, and we need to wait like few days for every 3 episodes to be released.. cause were renting from some video shop..

the story goes like, one man when he was younger, worked at a mooncake shop and fell in love with the boss's daughter.. den both of them went thru hardships and successfully managed the business together then got married and had 6 kids(one daughter was adopted).. but good times dun last.. soon aft their business went on tracks, a wicked women(divorced with a daughter) came by to worked at their shop and seduced the man.. she schemed and made the man to divorce his wife and split their 6 children into 2 groups, 1 grp was allowed to follow their mother, and the other was forced to follow their father together with their wicked stepmother..

the mother was very clever, she ordered her eldest son(then 15yrs old) to follow his father so that in future, wherever they may go, the eldest son can still keep in contact with their mother.. then now, when all the kids had alr grown up.. all were very filial and knows how to protect their mother from the stepmother's scheming plans.. though the man betrayed his wife and married another, the wife didnt blamed him, in fact, she even suffered humilations by the wicked mistress just because she wanted to protect her children that are living with the man and the wicked mistress..

i dunno how to continue la.. lols.. but that's roughly how the story goes.. so people, if u're a fan of TVB series and wanna know how this family dispute will end.. pls go rent or download or what-so-ever u may resort to, must watch!! i rate this show 9.9/10.. the o.1 goes to the slow release of the show, lols.. u know, everytime must wait few days before we can watch the exciting.. whatever la, go rent k? must watch k? gonna go watch the latest release now.. hahaas.. cya!!

SPLURGE

i really dunno what happened to me that made me bought all these stuffs and spent so much in a single week.. oh no.. hav to stop.. but how can i resist? all these were too tempting cause they were all duty-free!! means no tax, no GST... lols.. was at the airport and spent so damn much!!

singing!!

last nite went to TOPONE singing.. hahaas.. loved singing la, me..

actually the karaoke is to celebrate the COMEX show ended with profits!! me and stev is the 庄家 last nite.. lols.. we paid la!! haiyo.. i sang loads of songs la.. den when we all finished singing, wanna go home.. they all went home in taxi, den me and my aunt drove vincent lai home.. cause midnight alr and he is alone going towards ang mo kio.. so we sent him home lo..

my popo's birthday..

see my popo? very cute rite? these are the photos we took in the 1 single day i spent in PENANG.. and, the pair of earrings my popo is holding is from me!! pretty rite? hahaas..


this is my daddy and my mummy.. singing on the stage.. oh ya, this place is a restaurant we booked to celebrate popo's birthday.. and we hav a personal DJ to help us to play songs for us to sing.. lols..

okays, starting from the left, is my 2nd uncle then is my daddy, last on the right is my 4th uncle.. they are singing some hokkien song which i cannt understand.. lols.. btw, my daddy and 2nd uncle were alr drunk..


in this photo is my smallest uncle and my 3rd aunt.. this is the aunt whom im closest with.. see? she spent ard 3 hrs to pick this clothes.. hahaas..


ya, and that's me and my aunt singing on the stage.. i actually dun wanna sing de.. cause all the songs there were very very old.. the latest i can find is 潇洒走一回.. luckily, i know this song since im younger.. lols..

so, aft all that singing and everything.. we went home to slp.. then next day ard evening we went to take plane back to singapore.. lols..

while having the dinner at my popo's celebration, i received an sms from him*.. wonder if he really meant what he says, but i really dunno how to reply.. so i thought i'll think it over carefully then reply him when i get back to singapore.. but i think he is very anxious abt those decisions, so he rushed ne for a reply.. no choice, no time to think, so i anyhow reply lo.. i asked my aunt to help me so she told me how to reply.. actually what she taught me to reply is also what i really wanted.. haix.. its just to stay like how im now.. i hope i can be as carefree as now til forever.. dun wan anymore upsets, heartbreaks or happiness that dun even belong to me..

COMEX SHOW 2008

hey hey hey!! gonna update on those few days while was at COMEX SHOW 2008.. last wednesday went there to set up the whole place really wore me out lo.. den the next 4 days, my legs muscles very tight all the time.. haix... cause due to my stocks all kept below the counter, hav to squat up and down all the time.. but this time given the chance to manage this booth was a great experience.. actually my aunt wanted me to be in-charged this time is cause of last time she asked me abt what ambition i had.. so she say like this time is a good chance to see if im able to cope anot.. hahaas..

this time round, all those frens i hired were very supportive and helped me a great deal.. THANKS TO ALL!! other than experience, the other important thing that i gained aft this show is friends.. yupp.. made a few frens.. they were: shulk, don, erwin(that-prettyboy), larry, samuel, mark, bernard,nicholas and edric.. all of them were very hardworking lo.. keep helping me to serve those customers.. and we sold more than 400pcs of MAXTOR hdd..

though my PRESTIGIO hdd got stuck during the 1st 2 days, but ARIF helped me push the sales during the weekends andd we sold more than half!!! PEIWEN oso had her own skills.. lols.. she attracted alot of indian customers.. hahaas.. and i didnt knoe she can really serve and sell things so well.. all thanks to her passionate personalities.. szehui and vincent helped me to handle the stocks and invoices.. and the rest helped me to tackle potential customers..

there's this samuel, the big guy.. vincent they all call him big-size.. but he is not fat, he is just very muscle.. cause he studying the physical edu wit KIT.. and he previously worked as a mover, like those guys that help people to move furniture when they move house.. he looked so big and intimidating, but he actually very shy de lo.. lols.. can blush easily, and my aunt say he very hardworking, especially when he helped me to carry those heavy stocks..

then there's this imation guy, same age as us.. call himself that-prettyboy.. lols.. he's the one la, whom peiwen and vincent say look like L in DEATHNOTE.. and they say he look very 哈日.. hahaas.. den keep calling me dragonfly.. lamer.. haix.. he really dunno chewying in chinese is another organism not dragonfly.. lols.. and even guess grasshopper!! hahaas.. take ur time, pretty boy.. and smsed saying meet up some day, okays la! den shall see if he can figure out what is chewying.. lols..

okay la, had a fun weekend at suntec.. tml will b flying over to penang to celebrate my grandma's birthday.. come back then update again..